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WhtDove Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-22
Posts 9245Illinois 
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Some things I need to get off my chest here...sorry it don't rhyme, the meter is not there, just thoughts off my chest is all....bare with me. Lord, I stray from my walk with you Though I still pray and believe I need to walk along narrow ways And I need your help to pull me back I want to run and rescue those I see That are in need of help, but don't know it It's not that I'm any better Lord But that I've been down those roads before My brother who is younger than I Has so much going for him Though the one thing against him Is destroying it all, and he don't see... Many times he's tried to overcome Whether to appease someone else, or for himself I don't know The alcohol now affecting his kidneys Though it's heard from others And hidden from us by him Does he not see it's killing him Taking the precious life you've given? I can go and talk and yell But what good does it do Lord? No bottom for him seems to come When it's out of my hands, I must leave it with you- My sister Lord, trying to raise Five children on her own- Somewhere along the way has tuned them out Shut up...ya, ya, ya - is what they hear Three already in and out of Juvie hall One boy young and taking care of a baby of his own Without the guidance of my parents I fear where the other two might end up She already excludes herself from the family Would it do any good to say anything? Or would it then jeopardize the help the other two are getting? Pray? I have! Whether I've forgotten lately, or just given up, I don't know! Wanting to take these two in my home Knowing she won't agree Knowing I cannot support them As things are already rough The oldest of the girls lives in Juvie for that has become her home She refuses to go to school I asked to take her in - but was denied! God my heart bleeds and aches terribly They don't want to hear of YOU- When I know YOU can be their help As I stand back and watch what it does to those around them [This message has been edited by WhtDove (edited 03-15-2000).] |
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Denise
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
Great big HUGS, Rebecca. Don't give up praying. That is is the best and usually only thing we can do. His timing isn't our timing. But you know that....I do too, but it is sooooo hard to watch our loved ones hurting unnecessarily. Denise |
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BSC
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Member Elite
since 2000-02-04
Posts 2919New York, USA |
Oh WhtDove - Doesn't sound like "some ramblings" to me, sounds like the breaking heart of a sister.....I've been there, and ALL you can do is put it where you have, in God's hands...and, know that He is with you, and them...I hope it all works out for all of you...in the meantime, keep praying. Bonnie |
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Aiden Kelly Member
since 2000-02-14
Posts 148Ft. Wayne, IN USA |
first off...here is a great big HUG for you!!! second...you have nothing to apologize for! meter or no meter, poetry is the heart and soul on paper! you've bared your soul to us and to the Lord and that is the best way to help you get things out in the open and off your chest. now i know how to pray for you and i will be praying! God bless you! Joshua 1:9 |
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sandgrain Member Elite
since 1999-09-21
Posts 3662Sycamore, IL, USA |
My heart aches for your aching heart, dear. I think God wants us to KNOW we're helpless to change someone else, but Know He's not, so praying for someone isn't like doing next to nothing, it's like recognizing you're doing the greatest thing possible for them. Glad you got this off your chest and it's in a beautiful prayer. I love you. |
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WhtDove Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-22
Posts 9245Illinois |
Oh Denise thank you! It does hurt to watch them, knowing there is better out there. I've been praying for years, and somewhere I think I just stopped. I will have to start again. Bonnie thanks so much! My heart is breaking! Aiden thank you! I appreciate your prayers so much, I really do. Mom, that could be it I don't know. I know it's the most you can do for someone, and I know I can't change them. I have left them up to God and somewhere along the line, just pushed them from my mind...but once again I shall continue to pray. I love you too! Thank you, all of you! You are all a God send and a major blessing to me! |
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rwood Member Elite
since 2000-02-29
Posts 3793Tennessee |
Many, many prayers for you from my heart to God. This is so hard, but your words reach a poetry more precious than anything else...family. Family is poetry in motion. With all the heartache and the happiness. God will put rhyme and reason back into the fold. He hears you Whtdove! I know he will give you a blessing. Sincerely, Rwood |
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ellie LeJeune Member Elite
since 2000-01-10
Posts 4156King of Prussia, PA USA |
Dearest Rebecca; I so wish I could give you that hug too. What a mess and I hear your helplessness. I've been there and you are praying the best prayer when you surrender them the the Lord. Sometimes accepting our own powerlessness is the hardest part, especially for a loving person like you, because you want to help, and they aren't ready to recieve it. I will add my prayers to yours for your family. I love you, Ellie 02 |
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Alle'cram Senior Member
since 2000-02-28
Posts 1816Texas |
WhiDove, I agree with all posts above. You will be in my prayers. 2Chronicles 6:1;"Then said Solomon, The Lord hath said that he would dwell in the thick darkness." I found (I) could do nothing that made a difference in such matters of family; It is scripturally sound advice to give this situation to Jesus, in total surrender; I found that almost impossible, as the pain was so deep, the burden so heavy and I had carried it so long, with prayer and no results; I saw I was becoming a victim of circumstances of which I seemingly had no control. The Lord's heart was hurting for me and my child also and reached out to me and brought me comfort and a game plan; He knew my prayers were words with little faith attached in this area, although the words still continue to flow, He was listening, I just didn't think He was; He told me to seek out prayer warriors that would earnestly and deligently seek Him out for me, concerning this matter. I found about four that I knew was righteous before Jesus, with faith and would pray as I explained the importance of this prayer request, given me from the Holy Spirit. Every time I saw one of them I checked with the prayer line, ever reminding them of my dependance on them to give this to God on my behalf; I soon started feeling a comfort. I began to pray again as I had once before. One day, about three months (?)I took this need before the Lord, with complete surrender I was able to give it to Him. I knew the minute this bondage was released from me. The problem remained, and appeared to be going from bad to worse. I stood on the Word. During the prayer of faith the Holy Spirit let me know He would bring our son out of this darkness. What a blessing and as I said, the bondage was loosened from me. I stayed strong with my belief, although after four years I began to call on prayer warriors again, still not being robbed of what the Lord told me. One night around mid-night our son came to our home, awakened me and asked me to come outside he wanted to talk; he asked me to help him get rid of the problem that consumed him (drugs). I did nothing to garner his need for me to help him. This was totally worked out by the hand of Jesus, because of the shock and timing of our son's request. He was in a re-habilation center, one of his choosing from a list of three I found, the next day. He came home a different person. My husband and I did not know this sweet boy, we knew he looked like our son but it couldn't be!! We too, had forgotten how to act, for his condition affected us as much as him. It tears a family up. Without Jesus, I shutter to think when he would have ended up. I know your pain, I feel your hurt but let prayer warriors help you. I hope this gives you some insight how the Lord led me to get a answer to this prayer; no human could have done it, the miracle of freedom of our son's drug bondage could only have come from our Savior, Jesus Christ. (I) tried everyway, (I) had to get out of the way so the Lord could work this miracle. Love you and Bless you sweet sister. Marcy |
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Pepper Member Elite
since 1999-08-19
Posts 3079Southern Florida |
Dove, I think that my friends above have said it all .... I will offer my prayers, dear one ...... Shannon |
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deleeme Senior Member
since 1999-10-09
Posts 1766NEW ENGLAND, USA |
I'm sorry dear friend for being late in my response, but I hope you know we love you and are concerned for you and your loved ones. If only people could see what they are doing to themselves, and how much they are hurting their loved ones. May you take solace that the Lord also grieves for them in their wayward paths, and yet stands ready to welcome them back home, if they will but turn back to Him. Continue to pray-there's no other way! God Bless you, David "Our Creativity points to a Higher Creator--we couldn't have just happened, and for what ability we may possess--to God be the glory." -dlw- |
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WhtDove Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-22
Posts 9245Illinois |
You know, you guys are just something else! God Bless each and everyone of you  I am feeling a bit better today, and my husband and I started out today with prayer. He listened to me, and suggested we start praying together in the morning, and I tell you what, today was a whole lot better. I know I cannot change them, my husband has been through this...and through rehab, and he'll tell anyone that it is only by the Grace of God that he is sober and has stayed that way.I know only God can change them, I guess being human, we want it now, and His plans are much different than ours. His timing is always perfect and I lose sight of that. Thank you much to each of you, for your prayers and your comfort and your words. Please do continue to pray though...and God bless you all! I love ya! |
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